The Devil's Pit by Naomi Martin

Author:Naomi Martin [Martin, Naomi]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-05-24T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter Eighteen

Raven

I lay on the bunk in my cell, staring up at the ceiling. My lips still tingle and tendrils of fire course along my skin as I think about being with Zane. It was everything I thought it would be and more. A smile touches my lips and a pleasant shiver runs up and down my body.

Feeling restless, I get up and pace the small cell, then get frustrated with the lack of space and sit down in the chair at my desk. There’s some small part of me that thinks I should be ashamed about the fact that I’ve slept with Elliot and now Zane. But there’s another part of me that just doesn’t. I care for both of them—all three of them, if you count Gray. And to my way of thinking, when you care about somebody, there’s no need to be ashamed of sharing yourself with them.

As I think about all three of them, a smile stretches across my lips. They’re all so different. Elliot is sweet and kind, compassionate and earnest. Gray is blunt and direct. Maybe more down to earth than the others. He’s definitely the more aggressive of the three, and the one quickest to anger. But he’s got another side to him, a softer side—he’s a lot sweeter and gentler than he lets on. And then, there’s Zane, the erudite and thoughtful member of our little troop. He can be mysterious and intriguing, and he definitely has some rough edges. But he’s sweet and solicitous. He’s generous of spirit and wants to take care of me.

There’s something about each of them that resonates within me deeply. Each has qualities that strike a chord inside of me, qualities I admire and respect. All three of them make me feel a certain way—and feel it in a powerful way. I’ve never felt so strongly about one boy before, let alone three of them. And it seems like something so wanton that I should be ashamed of it. But to me, it feels natural. It feels right.

Society might frown on it. People might call me a slut, or whatever. I’m sure I’d be judged harshly by some people out there. So I guess it’s a good thing I’m not out there. That I’m in here, where the rules are different and I don’t have to worry about being judged or not conforming to society’s standards of proper behavior for a woman.

As I sit here in the dark, thinking about all three of my boys, the smile on my face stretches from ear to ear. I realize how utterly insane this all is. To have had my life ripped away from me and ending up in this place, to having three amazing men in my world and to have found some small measure of happiness—it’s insane.

But even more than that, something about having all three of them in my life has shifted something inside of me. Something has definitely changed because of them. I’m stronger, there’s no question about it.

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